Searching for lyrics

Do you think I can find Steve Bell lyrics to post on here.
Well no, no I can't.

So this post is short. Because everything I wanted to say is wrapped up in this song.

Weeeell...

I imagine it's about that time.
That time where I post.
About intelligent things.

First I need to tell you, the internet world, about my once in a lifetime airport experience.
I think everyone at some point in their lives needs to have a moment like I did on Saturday.
There was so much anticipation and excitement leading up to the moment when my friend walked through the gates and down the hallway that all Mel and I could do was scream and run. Of course I was the one with tears running down my face as well. And everyone in the International Arrivals staring at us.
It was quite the reunion.

Since then i've been spending every spare minute I have at Trinity, awaiting the beginning of my ever hectic year.
Goodie.
My life has begun to slow. I call it the calm before the storm.

I thought today about play. Everyone needs to play. Some more than others. Some it seems that it's all they do. But to some extent YOU need to play to survive.
So go play.
Do what you want to do for maybe, I don't know, half an hour even.
Something that makes your soul happy and makes you smile inside.

One thing I love: driving by bread factories and smelling fresh bread
Song of the Day:
St. Augustine by Band of Horses

From the Journal:

"I'm anticipating school with a scared shitless excitement. I know it will mean more amazing people and amazing times. And I know this has been necessary, this summer. It has taught me a lot about myself, allowed me to slow down. Sometimes, ok most times, I resist God and His plan even though I know that every time I go through different stages, it's always worth it. Always. There is nothing that He does that doesn't matter."

It is here. This day has finally arrived. After the longest summer of my life many of my friends are arriving at school today to move in. My happiness cannot be contained. These girls are my lifeline, I don't have to explain any of my situations to them fully because they know me so well. What a good feeling that is.

Ponder while I wander....right?

I had a friend email me this week with this question and I would love your response and ideas on it:

"I was thinking about Greek theatre and while this concept is NOT original I want to run it by you.

Greek drama is divided into both tragedy and comedy (the two masks) yet don't both of these concepts depend on the perception of pain to get their message across to the audience? This bothers me as I think a full understanding of life entails tragedy and comedy, but if they do both depend on pain, where does this leave us in terms of learning from experience."

I don't quite have a definite answer for this one yet.

One Thing I Love: reuniting
Song of the Day:
Masochist by Ingrid Michaelson

After reading this post, I ache for school and my incredible professors. These two ladies are both amazing people. Meeting with them is an experience every time. To say I cannot wait is an understatement.

Quotes

I love belly laughing. When you can feel your stomach shaking when you laugh. That should be the one thing I love today.

As I read The Shack by William Young I underlined some resonating sentences or ideas. Here are a few:

"I suppose that since most of our hurts come through relationships so will our healing, and I know that grace rarely makes sense for those looking in from the outside."

"Humans are not defined by their limitations, but by the intentions that [God] has for them; not by what they seem to be, but by everything it means to be created in [God's] image."

"[Holy Spirit] She is Creativity; she is Action; she is the Breathing of Life"

"But without wisdom, imagination is a cruel taskmaster."

"Each choice ripples out through time and relationships, bouncing off of other choices. And out of what seems to be a huge mess, [God] weaves a magnificant tapestry."

"It is not the nature of love to force a relationship but it is the nature of love to open the way"

And I will leave you with this,

"Just because [God] works incredible good out of unspeakable tragedies doesn't mean [He] orchestrates the tragedies. Don't ever assume that his using something means He caused it or needs it to accomplish His purposes. Grace doesn't depend on suffering to exist, but where there is suffering you will find grace in many facets and colours."

One Thing I Love: belly laughs
Song of the Day:
Adore Adore by Yoav

a mystery

Shocked, heartbroken, appalled. This is what I feel. What I heard tonight saddens me in the deepest parts of my heart. For the few that read this please, please pray for me because I am grieving.
I keep getting knocked to my knees and I have nothing and am nothing but in Him. It causes me to rely and trust on Him so fully. And I know His plans are good. I know from the bottom of my heart that I can expect Him to be good. I am so confused but I refuse to be knocked off the solid rock I stand on.

One thing I love: swimming
Song of the Day:
Die Alone by Ingrid Michaelson

"Let me not outlive my capacity to love"

One of my favourite things to do this summer is cook with my roomate. Surprisingly we don't see each other very often but when we do, we usually end up cooking.
Tonight we made alfredo pasta with fried shrimp and, of course, a bottle of wine. Our attempt at class. It was delightful. In fact, this entire evening was delightful.

After dinner I went with my mother and her friend downtown. We made a quick stop at Cafe Crepe before going to see Metamorphoses, the show running right now at Pacific Theatre. The show runs until Saturday.

The cast is mostly made up of graduates from the William Davis Centre for Actors' Study. I have to admit I had a hard time getting into the stories at first but in my opinion the show and the acting got better as the evening progressed. The show was a compilation of stories, myths. A cleverly well written script combined with a more than brilliant set made this show engaging from beginning to end, although moreso nearing the end. This is definitely a show I would recommend seeing for the simple reason of storytelling. I wish I would have seen the actors use movement more to their advantage. There's so much more I thought they could do with what they were given. I wanted to see them play more. Nevertheless it is still a show worth seeing.
A little warning, this show has full nudity so probably not a show to take younger versions of us to.

One thing I love: Sam.
Song of the Day:
State of Emergency by Bjork

Understanding

In the midst of what seems to be a lifetime of confusion, this line made complete sense to me tonight:

"What she came to was that even if someone wasn't perfect or even especially good, you couldn't dismiss the love they felt. Love was always love; it had a rightness all its own, even if the person feeling the love was full of wrongness."

-Marisa de Los Santos

This is why we write books/plays/bibliographies, etc. We hope to find something, a tidbit, that resonates with us, with our story. Theatre was created to be a sharing experience, a live interaction with humans involving each of the sense. In the same way, books are intended for a similar purpose. More of the imagination is involved but there is still that feeling of, "Oh i've been there. Many times before. I UNDERSTAND". We want to know and be reassured that what we feel has already been felt. Someone out there has already gone through this and we immediately connect with that.

One Thing I Love: long emails from friends.
Song of the Day:
Let it all Out by Relient K

Tragedy

After exploring the Greek tragedies this summer and mulling over different ideas in my head, I have come to the loose conclusion that tragedy is when one party willingly engages, and a force causes the other party to disengage. That, my friends, is tragic.

Soundtrack of my Summer

List making got me through my first year of university with some sort of sanity.
Today i've been making lists. Things to do before school starts, Days to book off, Schedule for next semester, Things to save for, it never ends. So I decided to make a fun list.

The Soundtrack of my Summer
These songs, put together, create my journey this summer

1. Suicide Medicine by Rocky Votolato
2. Jolene by Ray LaMontague
3. The One I Love by Rufus Wainwright
4. The Shade of Poison Trees by Dashboard Confessional
5. Summer in the City by Regina Spektor
6. Frozen by Tegan and Sara
7. Last Dance with Mary Jane by Tom Petty
8. Remember Music by Rocky Votolato
9. You Wreck Me by Tom Petty
10. Hard to Concentrate by Red Hot Chili Peppers
11. Nineteen by Tegan and Sara
12. Saving Petals by Brendan Kwiatkowski
13. Remember Me by Steve Bell
14. The Great Salt Lake by Band of Horses
15. Something Beautiful by The Newsboys
16. Prescilla by Bat for Lashes
17. It is Well with my Soul by Jars of Clay

Fluff

Biggest pet peeve right now.
Tailgaters. Is that really the spelling?
Tonight I was driving along and this jerk pulls up right behind me and flashes his brights at me.
First reaction, put on the brakes.
So I did.
He backed off.
They usually do.
But still, I shouldn't have to do that. And really, are you that impatient that you can't go maybe 5 km/hr less than you would be going if you were ahead of me.

Beware you tailgating scum.
I always, ALWAYS lay on the brake.

Dave Matthews Band. Sexiest music ever. Check them out if you haven't.

One thing I love: midnight walks on the beach with friendly friends
Song of the Day:
American Baby by Dave Matthews Band

One thing I love...

Sooooo...still in the middle of reading every book ever.
Somehow I just don't feel content unless i'm in the middle of reading at least three books at once.

I'm currently reading The Shack by William Young (which I will try to finish tonight, among other things), Love Walked In by Marisa de Los Santos, and the Oedipus trilogy (Oedipus the King, Oedipus at Colonus, and of course Antigone) by Sophocles. And it's not that I have the intention of reading these books, i'm actually IN THE VERY MIDDLE of all of them.

A tiny little show announcement. Pacific Theatre is currently in the middle of running a show called Metamorphoses, based on the Myths of Ovid, which is slightly tying in with our show. How convenient. It runs from July 31- August 16 so you better get on buying those tickets! Should be a good show.
I will be there with my notebook ready.

I decided that along with my song of the day, I would also list one thing I love. Because sometimes I have to remind myself just how much I love living.

One thing I love: dancing at work
Song of the Day:
Different is Beautiful by Riley Armstrong

It is Well

These words have been ringing in my ears. It is well with my soul.

When peace like a river attendeth my way.
When sorrows like sea billows roll;
Whatever my lot You have taught me to say,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Though the devil will ruin, though trials should come,
Let this blest assurance control,
That Christ has regarded my helpless estate,
And has shed His own blood for my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

My sin, oh, the bliss of this glorious thought!
My sin, not in part but the whole,
Is nailed to the cross, and I bear it no more,
Praise the Lord, praise the Lord, O my soul!

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

And Lord, haste the day when my faith shall be sight,
The clouds be rolled back as a scroll;
The trump shall resound, and the Lord shall descend,
Even so, it is well with my soul.

It is well, with my soul,
It is well, with my soul,
It is well, it is well, with my soul.

Song of the Day:
It is Well with my Soul by Jars of Clay

Good books

I forgot to mention this awhile ago but I finished reading The Stone Angel by Margaret Laurence. If you get the chance to, please read it. Such a well written book. It's about a woman who, when she's old and aging, looks back over her life and realizes that she has led a loveless life. It's devastating and yet refreshing at the same time. And again, some excellent writing skills. Check it out.

I'm about three quarters of the way through The Shack by William Young. I will say no more til I am finished.

Song of the Day:
Frozen by Tegan and Sara

PS

Check it out...Trinity is slowly making our way into the Vancouver Theatre scene. Our picture is the one on the second panel. Mythification is the show we are writing this fall and our picture is in the brochure for the Greater Vancouver shows. Excitement.

Lists lists and more lists

This lady told me to...so I will.

I am someone who enjoys a good cup of coffee in the morning.

I think that someone should dig a big hole and stick all the boys inside and only let them come up when we want them to.
Juuuust kidding...

I know that I am loved

I have so much I want to do in what seems like so little time.

I wish that I could read minds. Life would be so much more simple.

I hate ignorant hatred.

I miss school. So very much. Mostly the people from school. The atmosphere. Learning.

I fear fear itself

I smell Febreeze. I used to spray febreeze in my room at school all the time so sometimes when i'm missing school, I spray it in my room.

I crave childhood.

I search for beauty.

I wonder where i'll be when I grow up. That is IF I grow up.

I regret sin.

I love hugs!

I ache for truth.

I am not going to ever smoke weed. I was asked twice tonight...

I believe in a thing called love.

I dance whenever I can. Anytime is dancing time. Sometimes I can't even help it. It just bubbles right on out.

I sing loudly. Especially at work. When the whole restaurant is quiet, you can hear me singing in the back. I promise.

I fight when I want to be heard.

I cry many times a day. Actually today is the first time I haven't cried in, well, a long long time.

I win at life. Usually just because I make the choice to.

I lose nothing but gain everything when I daily choose to take up my cross and follow Him.

I never go to bed early.

I always want to be going on adventures.

I confuse most people when I open my big fat mouth. It gets me into trouble a LOT.

I listen to great music.

I can usually be found in my car, Rufus, or on a stage.

I need physical touch. My love language.

I am scared of eternity

I am happy when I realize I am not alone.

I imagine a million things, a million times a day. That is why I do what I do.

If you have a blog, what the heck are you waiting for, fill it out...

Song of the Day:
These are the Fables by The New Pornographers