I am brought to tears regularly from people coming up to me and telling me how the show affected them. And 20 times a day I say to myself, "This is why I do what I do". We have created a piece of theatre that is important and deeply moving. People laugh one minute and the next second tears are streaming down their face. I am overwhelmed by this response and the way I have been treated by the Anglican Church of Canada. We were invited to the Synod banquet last night where we all sat at different tables and I ended up sitting at a table near the front of the room with the lady who financed the whole dinner and a bishop and some priests. And I had this out of body experience where I watched myself captivate these people and talk to them about giving ourselves permission to fail, eliminating judgement in the workplace and in our lives (are you laughing yet, because I am). I am 20 years old. I am talking to people who are in positions of power and authority. And clear as a bell it came to me, I am here for a reason. I have important things to tell these people and I am doing exactly what I am supposed to be doing. This church is dying and they need passionate young people and I have been given a chance to speak and you better believe I'm going to take that chance. This church needs us and we need this church.
I wrote this prayer in the middle of May:
Lord hear my prayer:
In all my loudness, let me stop long enough to hear your deafening silence. In all my pride, let me constantly fall on my face. In all my bitterness, let me open my eyes to grace. In all my vanity, let me become frustrated with the pettiness. In all my criticism, let me make room for redeeming qualities. In all my confidence, give me humility. In all my working, let me understand I will reap what I sow. In all my loving, let me know the heart of a servant. In all my reading, allow me to remember the knowledge worth remembering. In all my decision making, allow me to realize the tiny reality in which I live. In all my discipline, allow me the ability to break the rules. In all my speaking, let me say something worth saying. In all my happiness, let me acknowledge those who weep. In all my weeping, let me do away with self-consciousness.
In all my life, let me create.
2 comments:
Oh Karyn -- that is a most lovely and meaningful prayer -- crying as I read it. Thanks for sharing. I'm so glad you have this opportunity to use your creative gifts; plus the opportunity to work with a group of people you just met in May. Your world is expanding again, and for that I am glad. Love you always,
L
I hope this is who I think it is, the letter doesn't give me much help although the L-name I'm thinking of is near and dear to my heart so I will assume it's you! Thank you for responding. I am growing growing growing so much. My world IS expanding, I'm grateful that you realize that and accept it. Kisses.
K
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