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You know those times.
When you're dressed in your favourite clothes.
They fit you just right.
You've actually taken time to do your hair for once.
You're make up is done just right. Not too crazy but not too natural either.
You are wearing your favourite shoes.
The ones that you've worn so much you feel like you are going barefoot.
Lets not lie, you think your looking pretty gooood.

And you think,
"Now this is the moment where I should run into my ex"

But it never happens that way does it.
You see them when you're driving home
after working 8 hours
sweaty and gross
looking like shit.
Yes, that's when you see them.

...who takes time to do their hair anyway these days.

I started watching The Power of Myth today. Campbell talks about the center belief that ties every myth together. And that is the idea of a hero or heroine. A hero goes through some sort of change or higher understand and then gives of themselves for a greater cause. He claims that every human being can be considered a hero because everyone has gone through a birth. A time where they are in one state, they go through a change (take a passage) and become something different, something stronger, something better. That's as far as I got. Although I was thinking about it later in the day and I realized that I'm a huge believer in the everyday hero. Man, I have met some amazing people suffering for the sake of so many others. Makes my problems seem small and trivial.

I talked to a friend tonight who spoke brutally honest words to me. I don't think he will ever know how right he was. You know there are some people you can just pick up where you left off. Yeah, it was good like that.
I bought his cd. You should too. It's quite good.

Song of the Day:
Georgia by Ray Charles (best to listen to while driving and watching the sun set)

Summertime

It seems that blogging is the new thing to do amongst us theatre majors at Trinity. Check it out. She's in the same show as I am come fall. Very brilliant girl. We spent the day at White Rock yesterday.

I don't think there is anything better than sitting on a deck overlooking the ocean, drinking beer and listening to the Chili Peppers. Sigh. It's just what I needed yesterday. I'm going to Seattle this week as well. I need to see familiar people. The people that have loved me unconditionally this entire year. Speaking of which, it's only about a month til people start coming back! I'm making it through...only another month. I can do it.

I started watching the Power of Myth last night with Joseph Campbell and soon realized that I will most likely have to take notes while i'm watching. It's so packed full with information. I'm excited to start.

Song of the Day
Hard to Concentrate by The Red Hot Chili Peppers

Sigur Ros

Today was a sad day. A sad day indeed.
The Sigur Ros show at the Chan sold out in a matter of minutes, and unfortunetly, I did not get tickets.
I cried.
A lot.
Maybe said a few bad words. Threw some things.
If there is one thing I HAVE to do before I die, it is experience Sigur Ros...and at the Chan too. UGH. The acoustics in that place are unbelievable.
I have had a pit in my stomach the entire day I want to go so bad.
BAH i'm not happy. I'm so tempted to pay the 400 dollars to see them. To me it's almost worth it. And now i'm crying again.
Bad day all around.

Song of the Day:
O Praise Him by David Crowder Band

Scribble Scrabble

I really have nothing intelligent to say in this post. I don't even know why i'm posting actually.

I've been working a lot lately. And by a lot I mean a ridiculous amount. So obviously I get to know people I work with very well. It never fails to surprise me how young they are, and yet how not innocent they are. All childhood innocence, completely gone. These kids, and that's what they are, have done and tried more things than I care to ever do. And I surprise them. They think it's weird that I've never done drugs. Or had sex. It's new and foreign to them. Ha, i'm interrogated many times a week.

Being a part of these kids lives makes me realize how lucky I am. I look at the opportunities i've had and I realize most people my age have not done half the things I have. I ran into someone at Trinity the other day who has known me for a good nine or ten years of my life, a good friend of the family. He works at Trinity and we were talking about my summer and school and eventually life plans and he looks at me and says, "You know, you've lived a charmed life. Don't you realize that"? And until he said that, I really don't think I did. I have lived a life that some people only dream of. And I'm only nineteen. First thought that comes to mind is that I don't deserve any of the experiences that i've had. But then there's that Relient K song, with that line, "The beauty of grace is that it makes life not fair". I couldn't have said it better myself. It is not a matter of deserving. It's a matter of circumstance, which I can only be thankful for. And also a matter of God. I can look back through my writing and see where He's taken me. And guided me. And where i've trusted Him. I am so so so thankful that I will never have to deal with the things my work friends are dealing with now. And they are younger than me. My heart hurts for them.

Oh I remembered why I was going to post. Now I almost don't even want to give this secret away it's so precious to me. Sigh, but i'll tell you, because I would love for you to enjoy it as well. Word has it that VSO (Vancouver Symphony Orchestra) is playing this Sunday at 7pm at Deer Lake Park in Burnaby FOR FREE. The VSO and I have a long running history of performing (ask me about it sometime...) and so I am jumping at the opportunity to at least hear them again. Join me if you would like. It will be lovely i'm sure.

Song of the Day:
You Wreck Me by Tom Petty

Movie Night

I saw this movie tonight. It's called Wanted if you're too lazy to click on the link.
There are two reasons I watch movies. Either for acting or crazy scripts that leave you going, "What the heck just happened". The latter usually involves lots of action and guns. Which I also happen to appreciate. This movie was one of those. Except surprisingly funny and witty. Now that I think about it, I didn't think about the acting once. That is a good sign. Some of the script is lame, but you know, you can't have everything in life now can you. All things aside, I think you should watch it. It's good.

Song of the Day:
Thinking About You by Radiohead

Odds and Ends

I watched Inside the Actor's Studio for the first time today. For some reason I always saw it on as I was searching for something to watch but never checked it out. Duh. You would think the title at least would pop out at me. Apparently not. I had it recommended to me though so I decided to scope it out. For those of you who are like me and hate to waste your time when watching television, it is a show where a man, I forget his name, interviews famous actors. The interviewer has watched every movie and tv show the actor has ever done and researched a ton about them.

Today the interview was with Michael J. Fox. Now there is a man who has turned his suffering into joy (I have been on a theme of suffering this week, and no, not mine). Fox has Parkinson's Disease. I have watched two men in my family suffer from Parkinson's. One is already dead. It is a sad, sad disease that kills you very slowly and painfully. He talked about the opportunity this disease has given him. He told a story about several people standing around in a circle and each person wrote what they were suffering with and put it in a pile in the middle of the circle. When they were asked to choose which experience of suffering they would take from the middle, every single person took back their own. He was very inspiring. He also mentioned his book titled Lucky Man. Just a glimpse of his view on the disease that's robbing his body of control.

I am reading two of Henri Nouwen's books. Nouwen has an incredible story of suffering. He was a Catholic priest and a writer who died just recently of a heart attack. Only after he died did it come out that he was a homosexual. He had gone his entire life without telling people he was gay. On top of that, taking a vow of celibacy for priesthood. This man knows suffering. People read his forty something books in a whole new light with the knowledge of his understanding of pain and what it means to have a "thorn in his flesh". Anyway, look him up for a good read.

I went running today and was completey taken back by the beautiful view. And it came to me that His banner over me is love. I can look back and think, these last six months have been the worst. I have never felt so much pain. And yet, tonight all I could think about were good memories from this last year. They came flooding in. I couldn't stop them. There I was, standing in a field watching the sun slip behind the mountains and all I could do was laugh. I must have looked like an idiot. I didn't care. My God is good, ALL the time and I wouldn't trade my life or my suffering for the world.

Song of the Day:
See the Morning by Chris Tomlin

Pain

"Not hardship, nor hunger, no pain or depth of sorrow
Not weakness, nor failure, no broken dream or promise
Nothing can take me from Your great love
Forever this truth remains"

- Kathryn Scott

This is my song.

They say that pain makes the best art. Unfortunetly for humankind, I think this to be truth. A part of me is glad about that. Because some of the art I see takes my breath away. As does most of the pain I experience. It is also extremely sad. I often wonder and question why must we go through such crud to reach brilliance? Any thoughts?


I was given the entire interview with Joseph Campbell on "The Power of Myth". I will watch it and report.

Song of the Day:
Last Dance with Mary Jane by Tom Petty

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